On Time!

I have a great accomplishment to congratulate myself on with a post. :)
I have dropped off and picked up Eirik to and from preschool 8 times and been ON TIME every time! Now is where I make the confession that I think I was late to every single class of High School and college my entire life. I was so notoriously late that I am surprised I did not have to repeat a grade or fail a class or something. It took meeting Paul and having him be honest with me about how rude and thoughtless it was of me to be late to things to start the change. I had to study tardiness.

I learned that if you are notoriously late you probably:

1. are seeking attention, and enjoy getting it as you enter late
2. enjoy letting people think that you are so busy or important that you could not possibly make it on time.
3. seriously think that what you were doing that made you late is way more important than any engagement, and you don't mind if the people you are engaging with know that.
4. enjoy making people wait since it give you power or control

All of these reasons have something to do with pride and selfishness. I never realized what message I was giving when I was always late. I just did it out of habit. I have learned since making it a priority to be on time to things that I think a lot more highly of myself. In my "late" days, I can't tell you how many hours I wasted thinking of excuses to give when I arrived to things. Excuses only made me anxious and fearful because of course they are always lies. I was late because I was prideful and selfish and always thought that what I was doing was more important.
So back to the point.. I was on time for preschool this week 8 times and with 3 children, one nursing, and having to haul out the double stroller and walk a block to get there each time, that, to me, it quite an accomplishment!
I have a new found respect for moms with kids in school. It is a BIG job!
phew!