This Motherhood thing never ends.

The morning of our fifth anniversary Paul said in an exasperated tone, "this marriage never ends." We got a good laugh out of it. And today I said the same thing to myself about motherhood. It just never ends. I've only been away from Paul for a week and I have had tons of help since they boys have been with sitters a ton, yet I'm exhausted today. Teething is tough no matter how you look at it. Joren is such a good sport but cutting 4 teeth all at once just makes hard nights. I think the boys are a bit extra irritable because I've been gone so much so when I'm around they want full steam every minute. Eirik has started the repeat the same question a gazillion time phase. I sometime race with him to try to answer the question before he asks it again the second and third and fourth and fifth and.... time, but usually I have to answer him 8 times before he stops asking. That's trying. :)
He also has picked up some attitude somewhere along the line. Yesterday in the car he said, "I don't want to go to church. I don't like it. It's not fair. It's not fair! I poop on you. blllbbllb. See I pooped on you mom." Great. The poop stage starts early. Of course then he feels the need to repeat the whole schenario over and over again while I try not to respond either way to the whole thing hoping I won't inadvertently reinforce this new very fun behavior. Also, Eirik has decided he is still a baby and he insists that I carry him up every flight of stairs and everywhere there is more than 4 steps of walking to do. He says, "I'm a baby too, I'm a baby too." and then he sits down right where he is and won't move. He did this on the beach in Oregon when I took the boys by myself. I litterally couldn't carry all of our gear, Joren and Eirik up the terrain to the house and he decided a block from the house that he wouldn't walk anymore. I waited and waited for him and finally had to take the baby and drop him at the house and run back to the beach for the stubborn little cus. When I got back he was still planted in the same place in the sand crying, "I'm a baby too!"
Today he ate for the first time in a week. I guess he only needs nourisment once a week. After thowing away meal after meal without a single nibble I can't help but get stressed about it. No morsel can be conned into his stubborn little mouth unless he's willing. Today I told him the story of the loaves and the fishes and after I finished he said, "I want a piece of bread." My jaw dropped and I ran to the pantry as fast as I could before he could change his mind. He ate two whole pieces and a big bowl of applesauce. I wanted to do a dance. Maybe he won't starve to death this week.
I'm off, gotta nap while I have a chance. It might be my only chance this whole week. I love Sundays.

Where did last month go??

Well I have taken a super long blogging break. In the past five weeks we have not slept in our own beds. We have driven over 60 hours in the car with two babies, and we have drastically changed our plans and had a great time doing it all. Since Paul is in his 4th year of med school (YEAH!!) we decided to take advantage of all the out rotation opportunities and get out of Michigan while we still can. (no offense MI). Paul has his sights set on an internship spot in MI so we hope to stay put after this year for about 4 more. So we planned a month rotation in Oregon and another one in December in Utah. A month is a long time, but we love both of our families and since we live so far away they spoil us when we come to town so how could we resist? I have been waiting to blog about our trip until I can upload the jeezilion photos that I took (including the photos from my new CANNON REBEL XTi!!!! that Paul surprised me with for our 5th anniversary.) But I can't wait anymore so now you have to wait for the photos instead.
While we were in Oregon our kids got to spend tons of time with cousins. Eirik learned a lot of independence because I got myself rolled up in a big ol time consuming design project that I just can't ever say no to. I am SUCH a sucker! My sister and brother in law have this big gorgeous home and they had no furniture or decorations... so I got the wonderful job of helping them spend their money on lots of great pieces. It was so much fun and so satisfying to make something beautiful. I love how in design it's like a giant puzzle. All these hundreds of little pieces have to fit together just right to make it work. It takes so much time to move things around and around to get everything just right. Anyway, if she sends me pics when all the furniture gets there I can post some, but let me just say that it was so fun and their house is going to be Stunning! They also hired me to do a custom painting which is totally flattering. Not only will they have their house decorated by me, 5 flower arrangements I made and 5 kids paintings I gave them but a huge painting for over their fireplace. They must really like my style. :)
I also got suckered into painting a flower scene on the walls and the stairs in the stairwell into my mother and father in law's basement. This was very cool because my grandpa did this in his house so I used to go hang out in grandpa's cheery storage room stairwell that had flourescent flowers and cobblestones on the stairs. It was so sweet and always made me wish that I had had a chance to know my grandpa beter before he died when I was only 6. I'm sure I would have loved to be with him. So this painting was for my in-laws house, but it was really in memory of my Grandpa.
It was strange that while I was painting the stairwell I got a call from an old friend in MO. She wanted to know if I would be interested in painting some murals in a church in MO that she is helping build. I said yes so on the way home from Oregon we stopped at an airport to let Paul fly off to MI to work and I kept on driving to our sweet little MO town and I started painting... and painting and painting and painting .. and I have never painted so much in my whole life. I have painted 5 walls with murals so far and I have 9 more to go!!!! It feels like I will never finish right now. It's a huge project. Did I already say that?
So, that's where I am. My kids are basically in day care while I paint away for a few weeks. And they are doing great.
We miss our home and hubby/ daddy though. Today for the first time in 5 weeks Eirik said, "I want to go to Michigan!" and I felt the same way. I will paint fast Paul. And hopefully I can show some pictures and give some adorable little boy updates soon.
untill then.... ;)

August rocks

A couple of things:

1st. Paul took his second boards test on Friday. He took two weeks before to study like a banshi. We're lucky that we have a study/ studio so that he can study at home or we would never have seen him. It's one of those tests that takes like 6 weeks for the results to come in. How can it take 6 weeks to score an online test??? So they make you sweat while you wait, but Paul feels like he did pretty good. Way to go Paul. We're that much closer to that enviable derm spot we're hoping for!

2nd. I just finished

and I'll just say that I was NOT disappointed. (except in myself for being a sucker for a teenage vampire book!) I am just so proud of Stephanie, a BYU grad with two boys at home, for showing that as moms we can make a difference in the world and come out with something pretty darn great. I love that it is a moral book through and through and yet still so intoxicating. Yeah for Stephanie! I hope she just keeps on writing!

3rd. Just some tidbits about our day and some pictures from this month:

It was a relaxing Saturday. It was good to have some of the anxiety of boards out of the house and our Paul back. He made a bow and arrow with Eirik that actually really shoots pretty far. Pretty impressive. Eirik was needless to say, very impressed and I'm sure he won't put it down for weeks. We went to a bunch of garage sales this morning. I found a big life size castle for Eirik for $10.
I also bought two huge bags of games and great toys for another $10. I got a new pressbox to make art out of for $1 and a whole bag of shirts for Eirik $6- just what I was looking for! I also found this sweet barn for $1! I love this. I think I'll paint it red and put turquoise and green and cow patterened backgrounds in the squares and use it as the inspiration for Eirik's next room... that is if he still likes horses when we move next. :)

Garage sales are so fun. I love the deals and I love having new things for my kids that barely cost me anything. For what I spent today I could have bought one new toy or game. Bargains rock!

The weather was gorgeous today. It was an easy 78 degrees with a soft breeze. We have 53 ducks in the pond in our backyard and for some reason they were playing all kinds of games today. It was like a cacophony of ducks and splashing and quacking all day. It was like the ducks had gone crazy. We had fun watching them. The day I took this picture there were about 13 geese too.
Around 5:00 I noticed a dark spread of clouds rolling in. I took my boys to the front lawn to watch the darkness roll in. The clouds were amazing swirling and spreading and changing so fast. We stayed out on the lawn until the raindrops started falling. I'm sure it will be a fun memory to look back on. Paul has been craving chicken wings so we went to Happy's Pizza tonight, and on the way we drove by a house with flames shooting out of the roof!! I have never witnessed a house on fire before and what a sight it is. As we were heading out for a fun happy night someone else's life was being burned up. Crazy how fast bad things can happen. It seems so fragile, this little life we have. I want to soak up every little drop of this time with my Joren while he is still little and before he starts crawling which will be any day now. It seems like as soon as he can crawl, he's just not quite so dependent on his momma for every little thing. There are so many moments in our little family life that I want to record so firmly that I will never forget, like today when Eirik charged through the door of his new castle decked head to toe in his homemade weapons and armor to fight the fiery dragon and save the princess. Or today when we pushed the furniture to the the edges of the room so that we could all demonstrate to Joren how to crawl and then when he pushed up into plank position we all erupted in clapping and he looked like the happiest and proudest little baby in the world. Or yesterday when the boys were taking a bath together and Eirik asked me to help Joren stand up so he could give him a big hug and Joren of his own accord pulled his little chubby arms up around Eirik and hugged him back and then they splashed each other in utter joy for the next 5 minutes.

Here are some photos of the past few weeks:

I taught a little summer art class in July for a few of the kids of some of my friends. I LOVED doing this. They are such great kids and I loved seeing the unique approach that they each had. I loved seeing their talents. I had to work hard to not direct too much and just let them work. I wish I had pics of all the talented kids that have made art in my house. I hope to continue this and open the classes to more kids. I miss it already.



For some reason I thought that the horses, weapons, dragons and knights were just a phase and that it wouldn't last very long, but I was wrong. It seems that they are here to stay... and stay and...... stay...
This was what he created as a make-shift bow and arrow. pretty clever I thought.
all his "things" he can't live without.

For once I wasn't the one playing swords with Eirik. We had friends over and I made them all shields and it was SO fun for all of us!

Peter Pan / Robin Hood costume. His makeshift whip.
Anything can be a weapon.. and if you're tricky like I am it can be used to get the dust "really hard."
Eirik informed me right before he went to sleep that this is how cowboys sleep. I had to get a picture!

We got to go ride the pony's at the park as a reward for some good potty training progress. Eirik named the pony spirit and acted like he had never not been an experienced equestrian.
Although 99% of Eirik's play has something to do with the aforementioned weapons and horses, there are those rare moments where other creative play happens. This was so cute when I found Eirik making a tower out of my bracelets that he explained to me he had "planted" in the cup and was now watering to make them grow. :)
This is our cute little friend Cooper who has truly learned to love books from his wonderful mother.

And I couldn't post without a few pics of this little angel!

Joren at 7 months old

Joren turned on this month. He has been an absolute delight. I know I always say that, but now I mean it even more. He's such a smiley kid. He is so easily pleased. He rolls and scoots and turns all over the place. He is actually interested in toys. He cries now when he can't reach something he wants. He will spend tons of time figuring out his toys and playing on the floor.

He loves to practice standing. He loves his exersaucer and his jumper. He started sitting with no trouble mid June. I love this stage when they can start holding on to you when you are walking around with them. He digs in fingers into my arms and holds on tight. It's so cute.




Eirik is a great big brother.
My very first campout July 25th- 8 months old! I got 10 mosquito bites on my head this night! What were my parents doing??
The food at the campout was not that good. Ick...
On this day I fed him some yummy food in our backyard. He got his first two teeth on the bottom in the third week of July. It was not an easy week for him. The poor kid was in a lot of pain, but now he's back to his happy self and super happy about the new things he can eat. He's not a picky eater, and he's excited to try anything. I was nervous to give him cheerios before he got his teeth and so I put it off for a long time. Imagine my surprise when I gave him a handful of cheerios for the first time and in about 1 minute he had eaten every one of them, dropping none! I didn't even realize he could pick up small objects with such dexterity yet. More please..
Oh, you wanted to see my silly face??
Here's another one of my silly faces. You like it?


His hair grew in super red this month. Everyone comments on it! I guess only 2% of the population has red hair so he's a special kid. I love his birthmark on his leg too. I hope he grows up to like it. It's pretty prominent. This is Paul's shirt from when he was a baby. Since Joren's middle name is Paul, it's perfect.
but he didn't think so.
Joren rocked on his knees for the first time on his 8 month birthday. I think it will be a while before he crawls still. He is pretty content watching everything. He makes cute noises all the time and has a very high pitched squeal he uses to communicate. He's not a big crier at all. He will lay in his crib for a long time before he really wants to get out. I have to listen for him on the monitor so I don't leave him up there too long.
He's just wonderful. We'll keep him.

Fishin'

We had an impromptu trip to Heritage Park with a bunch of friends a couple of weeks ago. It was a bring your own lunch and come fish day and I loved the no - stress feel of this outing. Maybe that's because both of my boys fell asleep in the stroller toward the end and I got to chat for what seemed like the first time in ages with some of the people that I see on a regular basis. I don't do well with good conversation when I have little boys demanding attention. I'm just too scatterbrained for it. So it was a lovely day and thanks to Christina for passing on these great photos that she snapped.

A few Quips from Eirik

So the other day I was cruisin' home from the grocery store when I suddenly realized that the lights were blinking next to the train tracks that I was just about to cross. It was so last minute that as soon as I realized that there were no arms that come down on either side of the track I was already over the tracks, and just about as fast I had blinking lights of a cop behind me. Imagine my embarrassment and astonishment that I could have almost been hit by a train! (I never claimed to be the sharpest..) But the best part of the story is that even before the cop was to the door my little Einstein in the backseat was telling me in his bossiest tone, "Mommy, gotta be careful when a train's coming, gotta be careful!"
Eirik held up a clam shell over his chest today and asked me "how do I look?" I said, "you look a little bit like a confused merman." He said, "NO mommy, I am a sir knight with a breastplate!" Oops, sorry, I should have known. Then he said, "I have my breastplate, helmet and all my armor so you can tickle me!"


I love it when Eirik is really appreciative of something like the other day when I gave him a milk and he said, "Oh Ank you Ank you Mommy!!"

Eirik likes to "pretend" talk on the phone. He loves to call Benjamen, Abram, Oly and Jakey all the time. The best part is when he is "talking" to Benjamen and he gets in a fight with him. "No, Benjamin, that's mine. I stout you! I bout you!" Then he pretends like he is both voices... "Ahhh!" "Ahhhh!" "Ahhhhh!" and the screaming war continues until I "break it up!"

Eirik is a major collector. Every day he has knew items that are absolutely essential and he can't go anywhere without them. Usually each object represents something grandiose that is happening in the imaginative story playing out in his head each day. Today we went to Joannes with a bath towel (cape) drumstick (sword) horse (Spirit of course) and a rocket (rocket of course). The other day it was a dog leash, a horse, Pete's dragon, and a ice cream scoop. He gets pretty possessive of his objects. The other day he fell asleep in the car so I was carefully trying to take him to his bed. When he woke up, he was immediately in a giant tantrum uproar. As soon as he could speak he shrieked, "I need my 5 hangers, my pink chapstick, my penny, a NEW milk (apparently the one I tried to give him was too "old" as in 1/2 hour out of the fridge) read some stories, watch Zaboomafoo horses, and then go to bed right now mommy, right now!!!" And then after reciting all his "needs" again in record time there was a lot more crying. I just had to laugh. Wow, that's a lot of needs. :)


Ok, this one is not so funny. We were having dinner at a friends house. All of their kids were excited to see this thing on the computer Paul was going to show them so they all trooped downstairs. My friend and I sat down to talk. The conversation moved to talking about how we have to be so careful to protect our kids since it's so easy for them to run into trouble. Right about then the doorbell rang and her neighbor from a few blocks down was wondering if Eirik belonged to her!! He had wondered out the back door and down the street!! Paul and I were absolutely sideswiped! Nothing like an incident like that to make you freak out. I thought Paul had him and he thought I had him. Yikes! We're lucky all of my friends kids have white hair because that's why they thought he belonged to her. When we asked Eirik what he was doing he said he was going to the forest to fight wild animals.

Which leads me to my next story. Today I was singing "Teach me to walk in the light of His love" to my boys. Then I said to Eirik, "Do you know that Heavenly Father loves you and will always lead you to safe places where you can feel love? He will never lead you to dark and scary places." Then in all seriousness my 2 year old said, "Actually mom, actually, I like dark scary caves to fight wild amimals wif my sharp sword and KEELL them. I KEELL the scary wild amimals wif my sharp sword mom." hmmmm..... how am I going to turn this one around???

I try to shirk my duties and "rest" on Sunday so my Mondays are always a race to try to regain a bit of order in the house. I was feeling pretty good about the state of things about 1/2 hour before my visiting teachers came over. I went upstairs for a spell and when I came back down to answer the door I discovered the results of the whirlwind that is Eirik. He had pulled all of the sporting equipment out of the closet by the front door, spilled about a gazillion crayons and a bunch of pretzels and dumped all of his toys. Yes folks, my visiting teachers had to step over all of these things to find a seat. I always thought that would happen in someone else's house, not mine. I am officially a mother of a 2 year old. And, I am proud to say that I was a bigger whirlwind today and the house is clean! Ha, 2 year old, I win! (until tomorrow at 7AM)


Recently Paul heard about a study that said that people on average claim that having kids does not make you a happier person. Well of course not on some days, but on the days when your kid takes your face in his grimy little hands and says, "Mommy, do you know that I love you?" it is all worth it. Those people that say it doesn't make you happier must not be embracing their role as a parent because if you are trying to be your best self in the world while neglecting your home, yeah the rewards aren't going to be there and you'll just feel the frustration. Parenthood is sacrifice and nothing that is worth it was ever easy.

Dreamy Rugs

I've always been a sucker for rugs. My parents wanted to give me a graduation gift from college many years ago and I asked for a rug. It's still one of my favorite things.
I was researching rugs for a friend of mine this morning and stumbled onto a site that has some fabulous rugs. Seriously, I could decorate many houses based on just these rugs.
Here is one of my favorites. If anyone has $5000 to spend, this is totally what you should get. :)
modernrugs.com

I thought that only happened in the movies: Eastern Market

When we first moved to Michigan we took a Saturday and drove downtown to see "Eastern Market". We had read about it and heard it was something like Saturday's Market or Flower Market so we were really excited. Imagine our dissapointment when we got there and all we could find for the whole 6 block radius were empty warehouses and dirty streets. We thought Detroit was really empty and hopeless.Luckily we learned today that we just went at a time when everything was closed for the season and today it was a big bustling Saturday's Market. We drove up there (about a35 minute drive) and walked around enjoying antique stores, TONS of flowers, trees and herbs, vegetables, insense and carved masks and of course Blues Karaoke and ribs on the BarB! It was a great time and tons of people. I was so glad we went. We found a few very unusual plants that we couldn't pass up for $1.50 each. One is a beautiful little vine called a candy corn vine.
The best part about the trip was when Paul was loading the stroller in the car. He folded it up and started to walk of the curb to the car when suddenly the bag that was in the bottom of the stroller slipped out and a banana just happened to slip out of the bag and in that one step Paul just happened step right on the banana and literally skated on it for about the distance of a short couch, and fell on his knee!! I thought that only happened in the movies!
Later Paul said it was very Mario Cart-esque- like the perfect storm. Classic!

I didn't get a picture of the banana fiasco, but I did get a shot to perfectly compliment my last post. All his screwdriver friends are lined up. Have I told him that it is dangerous to sleep with sharp tools you ask?? Uh, you try being his mother!